A lot can change in a year

This past year has been one huge roller coaster for me. This time last year, I was planning my dream wedding, working as a lobbyist for the State, living with my best friends, and was doing my thing on the weekends.. whether it was going out for drinks with friends or nice dinners with Slate. During this same month.. I walked into my job one day to find out that I no longer had a place to work. I was laid off. I felt like my world had been turned upside down.. how will I help contribute to the wedding? Where will I get money to live on? How will I pay my bills? What will people think of me now? Needless to say I was lost and felt like I didn't know where to go.

At this point I felt attacked by life's biggest fears and didn't know how to handle it. I tried to look for jobs online everyday and tried to think of what I could do. I worked for an attorney for a few months and that fell through so by February of this year I really felt that I had been brought to my lowest point ever. I was on my knees begging for some direction from God about where I needed to be and what I needed to be doing. Prior to God bringing me to my knees.. I was so caught up in what others thought of me and my job situation. I always thought I had done pretty good for myself with the jobs I had gotten or promotions I had received. People often thought highly of me for the work I was doing or positions I had acquired which kept me feeling good. I was your usual political guru.. I loved to talk Politics and enjoyed the debates. I felt content and excited most days.. I felt important.

When God brought me to my knees.. he showed me so much in scripture that I cant even begin to document it all to you. I went and purchased this small 31 daily devotions of what God had to say about Times of Uncertainty. Through those 31 days I learned a lot about why God brings us to that point but also I learned that what I thought was important in life was not the same things God thinks is important in life.

He showed me how selfish I had become. Every fear I had stemmed from what others thought of me or how I would pay for my worldly possessions. I needed money! I wasn't concerned about those less fortunate or helping others. I needed to help myself! I needed to survive! Wow has my perception changed.

Through these last 9 months God has changed me in so many ways that I hope to discuss throughout my journey of blogging. I am now actively involved in a non profit where I am able to use a past misery to help comfort those less fortunate. God has given me a passion for those that feel unloved and undesired..especially for teenage girls. I am now a substitute teacher and after God laying it on my heart for a year.. started a Women's Bible Study with my new friends here in Cumming. I don't care what others think of me and my worldly status. I am happier now than I have EVER been with where I am in terms of a career. I know now that money is not what you need to survive.. God is what you need. He will always provide for us if our hearts are in the right place. I'm learning how precious the gift of giving really can be. I am pleasing God and not others. Thank GOD that he brought me to my knees and showed me what is important to him! I hope no one takes this the wrong way.. this is my story only.. not my perception of others.


Love you all,

Brittany